The Divine Waker-Uppers
It’s all a miracle. All of it, from the infinitesimally small probability of our existence to the families we are born into, environment, chance, and serendipity. And so we float through the world in awe, struggle or blissful oblivion in the name of the miraculous — the human experience of transcendence we call life.
The miraculous was always within reach for me. I didn’t grow up with fairies or elves, but I never had to be convinced, changed or talked into any of it. My great-grandmother, Valasia, healed people with a special form of prayer. I will never forget her serious demeanor as she drew fire crosses with matches over a bowl of water and prayed semi-silently in Greek until the oil droplets she landed onto the water, told her it was done. There were always people coming in and out seeking healing, and it was all done for free. Although there were many rules around its secrecy — there were covenants and conditions too — I grew up witnessing miracles, while feeling an intense desire to find out how these things worked. The placebo effect could not describe how infants were healed, for example. It’s not like two-month olds experienced the biology of belief and yet, Valasia healed babies all the time. Quantum entanglement? Energy transfer? I saw Star Wars when I was in the seventh grade. I was in awe. The Force was the closest explanation I could relate to.
When people think of miracles, they conjure up scenes of a dying woman, who in the final throes of her last breaths opens her eyes with, “I am healed.” Images of angels and the beyond bring light, skies and clouds into focus, followed by life lessons and revelations to be learned. But for those of us looking for the formulaic definition of a miracle, maudlin sentimentality and discontent may lay ahead because every disappointment we bring upon ourselves arrives from the little voices in our heads that want to push and predict outcomes. Nothing and no one ever disappoints. Only our expectations disappoint.
And it works the other way too. We conjure up extraordinary every-day miracles via the power of intention; we just have to see them for what they are. How do we do that? By walking into a developed, astrally experienced wish. We must do that with all of our senses. We must feel the ease in our step, the strength in our spirit, see the beauty that surrounds us, smell the sweet aroma of our dreams fulfilled, and taste success with gratitude and humility… all in the name of service to humanity or those around us. But that is still a boxed expectation of a sort. The key is to stop qualifying discontent, disease, hardship and strife…because there are none. These things are simply course-changers; they are roadblocks along the way placed there by our own conscious creation in order to bring us closer to our true ever-evolving purpose. The bigger the purpose you dream up for yourself, the higher the price you would have to pay, and the larger the roadblocks you would have to overcome. If we do not clear these blocks, the obstacles will become larger and scarier until awakening takes place, even if that means crossing over. Our days on earth are prolonged by claiming our own creative power, taking charge, and by conflict resolution, so that the conflict doesn’t have to be resolved in the beyond by the legacy we leave for those around us. Therefore, we must not fear redirection, because it is a great teacher. We must not fear mistakes, because there are none.
Only then will our miracles emerge, simply because e very minute of every day holds magic in store and sets off cascades of events that lead to other miracles, yet the ones we actually remember are those which materialize in the face of adversity — a mom having a baby after she is told it can’t happen, a patient recovering fully after being told that death is imminent, and a woman regaining her health after her doctor tells her that she will suffer for the rest of her life. Just yesterday, I heard from a client who told me that his enlarged aorta has miraculously shrunk. These healings to me are actually less miracles than they are re-directed human spirit, that has been placed somewhat ungracefully and with a thud onto a quest to prove the doctors wrong. Scary diagnoses create determination, surrender or both. They rock our core to the point of us wanting to enter a new quantum reality. They shift our focus and wake us up. They summon an unwavering commitment to ourselves and make us transform. When that commitment is promulgated by fear, it will mostly likely sustain for a bit and then fail. If it’s prompted by love and a desire to rise above — for the sake of those around us, important work, purpose or a worthy goal — it will succeed.
Do you remember the part in the Matrix where the Oracle tells Neo not to worry about the vase and his act of looking for the vase topples it over? That is how I feel about doctors’ dark permanent illness predictions — the Divine Waker-Uppers. They are essential and without them, the vase won’t fall down. Grim diagnoses start chain reactions in those determined to beat the odds. The Waker-Uppers are the very essence of the determination itself. Our practice encounters them all the time, and I love working with people who are told that their afflictions are forever; my favorite is the there-is-no-cure-only-maintenance pitch. Nothing is more gratifying than seeing people lose heart disease, autoimmune conditions, chronic pain or diabetes as a result of a miracle — a quantum leap resultant from a Waker-Upper’s draconian push into an abyss our clients are forced to fly over. Nothing is more inspirational than our innate propensity for ascension. And it’s not reserved for a special few. It’s in all of us. All we need to do is reach for it with imagination, an arsenal of senses, an open heart, and self-discipline.
Einstein said that there are only two ways for us to live our lives: “as though nothing is a miracle, or as though everything is a miracle.” I want to share mine because it not only changed the course of my existence, it also gave me openness and surrender; it helped me realize that lacking faith is an insolent act of arrogance more than it is erudition. Extreme extrapolations in both directions (pro- and anti- faith) lead us to the edge of the circle, when the center is where the truth resides…
Almost a decade ago, I was working as a marketing director in the NYC metro area. Then all of the sudden, my whole life was unsettled and everything felt off kilter. The company was being acquired, my husband was dealing with several layoffs in a row, I had a young child stuck in day care into the night, and I wasn’t sleeping. And I mean, wide awake, every night, exhausted, tired, and wired. Thoughts spiraling out of control, fears, worries, bleak what-if scenarios, and deep, constant angst permeated my being. I was irritable and anxious. I had perpetual low-grade nausea, completely numb toes, achy knuckles and couldn’t move my hands effectively. Even holding the steering wheel required pushing through some pain. That lasted for a while; I just did soaks and massages, and kept going. RA was in my family, I wasn’t overweight, and the psoriasis in my hairline wasn’t all that extreme. It’s all genetic, right? I have had mild skin conditions and eczema my whole life, how bad could it be? I knew the stress made it worse and did my best to keep on going. Most days were fine. Some days were worse than others. The insomnia was what finally broke me. That’s what did it. So I started reading. And reading. And reading on neurotransmitters, exercise, medications, meditation, aromatherapy, herbs, and dietary changes. I did it all with temporary success until I went whole-food, plant-based. The changes were stark, quick, and life changing. Everything went away in time, not just the anxiety and insomnia, but also the aches, the psoriasis, the numbness…all of it. It’s been almost a decade now. That is a “miracle” on its own, but this is not about that at all.
The real miracle here is in the mind-shifting evolution that created a healer. It’s in taking charge and claiming responsibility. I walked into a different version of myself. I looked for the vase and broke it. Then picked up the pieces and fixed it. This didn’t feel as incredible as my great-grandmother’s healing prayers or as my grandmother’s stories of magic that created reality. But maybe it was. This healing spirit of belief was engineered in science, the language my heart wanted to embrace. Maybe it was easier when people had blind faith; today most don’t. We have changed the concept, but if we are speaking about bio-energetic dynamism, NLP, placebo, health psychology or medical hypnosis, why not consider the notion that creating a new health trajectory via mind shift (based on data) is not only possible, it’s highly probable? The biological changes that ensue as a result of a positive mental attitude are currently a scientific fact. Moreover, the belief system we follow has one aim only — to possess us as a state of knowing, not hoping, believing or wishing. Powerful knowing with conviction, lack of doubt, and unwavering strength propel the spirit into another dimension. Our experiential physical reality (that is really non-physical) follows shortly thereafter.
There are so many stories of miracles — triumphant and happy, grand and filled with hope. Stories of healing and good fortune. Stories of prayer at work. People coming back from cancer and from the dead. Yet until today, I cannot comprehend why I still lack faith on occasion… Does doubt make the heart grow stronger or is it the ultimate saboteur? I see it all around me too, and I feel like it’s our connection to the divine that is being tested. And that test, once again is brought on by a Divine Waker-Upper, the yang of Doubting Thomas’s yin, which is the ultimate balancer because every action has an equal and opposite reaction. The Divine Waker-Uppers bear faith. Then true belief charts the walk, and as we start walking, the path appears. Our belief system is the wormhole that connects us with manifestation. That is why, sometimes I envy those with blind faith. I cannot relate to them, but at the end of the day, this comes either from gullibility or from pure trust in the auto-programmed right course of action that exists in the universe. These special super beings are not afraid to make mistakes and know that the very word “mistake” is a judgement call, and therefore illusory. It does not exist. They also know that the perfect balance coded in and around us is oneness. What we do to others, we do to ourselves. What we give, we receive, what we learn, we teach, and what we see is a reflection of who we are.
And so, as I honor the divine source within every person, my spirit attempts to surrender deeper and deeper to the oneness of the matrix we belong to. It’s a quest enveloped in instant karma and miracles. May this Force be with you, and may you know you are a miracle too.
Taking Charge of Our Health
We live in a world made of magic… with bodies — divine, spirits — connected. The chemical song that forms our being evokes fascination. We bask in it daily without reparations. Just scratching the surface, we sense and endure biochemical eruptions, professed through breathing, emotion, desire, stress, love, growth, weight, skin, etc. The air around us is not just air. Once welcomed and processed by our biochemicals, it becomes an entity of life, sustenance, and healing. The water we drink is not just hydration. It’s a pathway, a movement that carries and cleanses. The food that we eat is not a social gathering routine. It’s fuel, a form of emotion, a spirit of healing. Non-metaphorical, physical healing.
Directly connected to this ethereal existence is our personal energy field, our individual biosphere that carries a combination of what we eat, drink, feel, think and do. This ether is permeated with our biochemistry, infused and swayed by tiny chemical messengers called hormones. They tell our bodies to breathe, contract, love, like, taste, smell, enjoy, remember, nourish, brace for impact, hydrate, dry out, swell, cool off, conserve energy, expand, shut down, and protect. They are the divine collection of chemicals. They are you.
Our senses unconsciously pick up temperatures, smells, irritants, pollutants, sounds, colors, textures and shapes. The mind processes them without approval or permission, filters the information through our body chemistry with the hypothalamus sending orders to the pituitary and the pituitary sending instructions to the thyroid, which in turn activates a collective of chemicals called hormones. They slide down blood and lymph vessels, reaching all parts of our bodies, in order to mobilize cellular response. And all of this is done in the name of keeping the ecosystem in check, happy, healthy, and protected.
Ever wonder why we are so big, sick, lethargic, lifeless, sleep deprived, drab and depressed? Why is hypothyroidism so pervasive? Why skin conditions and thinning hair are the norm?
Endocrinology offices are filled with surrendered souls willing to succumb to the idea that their conditions are incurable. And some may be, but do you think that the general public is aware of the limitations modern endocrinology faces? Are we collectively aware of the cumulative impact that our food, water, cosmetics, clothing, varnish, paint, cleaning agents, perfumes and containers have on us?
We must educate ourselves and focus on what we can do to cleanse and support our bodies in order to negate the harmful effects of our wounded environment, air, water and food. To be able to neutralize these harmful toxins decisively, we must understand how the pieces of the puzzle fit together, how the endocrine system works, and what its worst offenders are, as chemicals penetrate our brain barriers through smells; the products we use (and wear) are readily absorbed by our skin. They enter the bloodstream almost immediately upon contact, and we now know that the smallest of exposure can become a large problem. The research is clear and hard to ignore: tiny, yet chronic repeat offenders fueled by stress and fattened by bad food can have a detrimental effect on our neurological, immune and endocrine systems.
We have always known that our toxic environment affects our health, but the harm thus far has been understated, skirted around, and hidden behind medication commercials depicting happy, healthy people, who face their days with the help of pretty little pills. The part that is missing is that those pills will be much more effective (or even become unnecessary) if we rested better, slept through the night, ate well and got plenty of fresh air, movement and sunshine.
Emotions Are Biochemistry in Action
Stress is the biggest suppressor of health as 75–90% of all chronic conditions are caused or exacerbated by stress. The concept is well understood; the disruption to our biochemistry is researched and documented. Cortisol, the stress hormone induced by fear, hinders the immune system, interferes with brain functioning, lowers bone density, increases belly fat, blood pressure, and cholesterol. It reeks havoc into the fine balance within the processes of our bodies that comprise our marvelously interconnected system.
Chronically elevated cortisol levels put us at risk for anxiety, depression, mental illness, and death. Cortisol also decreases thyroid stimulating hormone (TSH) production and inhibits the conversion of T4 to active T3, while increasing the conversion of T4 to reverse T3. It also burdens the liver. Since the liver clears excess estrogen and estrogen mimickers from the blood, we can easily see how this leads to additional endocrine disruptions. Our glands and organs are overworked and encumbered.
Hormones work like the spokes on a wheel. Estrogen highs suggest progesterone or testosterone lows. Since progesterone is sleep-promoting, it is dubbed the relaxation hormone and it tends to promote a sense of calm. Low progesterone often brings about anxiety and sleeplessness. The few days prior to a woman’s cycle are especially problematic; that is when our progesterone levels are at their lowest. That is why insomnia is common during these days once a woman reaches 35–40.
Combating stress is a foremost priority for those suffering from insomnia. Balance — through foods, herbs, biofeedback, relaxation, saunas, spa visits, swimming, sun bathing, meditation, walking, dancing, lifting, yoga, love, and communing with nature — is not only recommended, it’s the human part of being alive. In fact, only closing our eyes for a few minutes and imagining these things, affects our hormone levels. The mind is “deeper than the ocean,” Emily Dickinson once said. It summons worlds that our hearts embrace. Imbibe the magic. Let it heal you. Look with your heart, not eyes. Then meditate to ward off worry. Welcome Spirit. Welcome Love.
We’ve seen the studies, read the texts, we know that meditation works and still, we cannot do it. We think of gurus in a pose, legs crossed, eyes closed, then metered breathing. We can’t imagine thoughts at rest. It’s hard for all. It’s more about connection, not just breathing. And we are all biological entities in need of introducing our hearts to ourselves — specifically, the parts of us that “took things to heart” when we were children. These things were the beliefs that we crafted and accepted as gospel. The modus operandi we follow blindly, no reserve. The things “we take to heart,” stay there and become both the observer and the seeds that need to be observed.
How deep is your faith that you deserve to be the one you want to be? The healthy, vibrant, loving form that you envision in a dream? And do you dream enough? How often? Do you invoke the spell of your senses? You know it matters — it’s the vortex. The secret, all there is and there will be. We can’t just breathe, we have to feel. We have to want, and touch, and smell… and want to change the way we are, and then repeat, repeat, repeat.
But our chemicals abound. Hormones are indicative enigmas, not just chemical messengers. What we should seek out is the source. The divine source that permeates the medulla oblongata that separates us from the lizards. This source (Quintessence, Spirit, Providence, Force, the Divine or All There Is) uses fractal geometry to ascend up to the pituitary, slide down the thyroid and free up hormone entities to secure a biological response. It’s never mindless, lost or sick. It’s perfectly, innately balanced.
The trauma that we let in can redirect the fractal course. It must be cleared, and chemical response will follow. A mind shift will create the path. If you are sick as a result of trauma’s workings, just take a moment and uncover why. All symptoms — hair loss, exhaustion, foggy brain, weight, swelling, bloating, rashes — all are warning tones that balance is in peril.
Hair loss, for instance, shows frustration. Why are you pulling your hair out?Chronic sore throat? Do you feel like you always have to swallow your pride? Are you physically exhausted or just tired of everything? Do you have shoulder pain because you are carrying too much on your shoulders? We are chemically, emotionally and physically bonded to all the things we take to heart. These things have become so causatively interconnected, they have become ingrained into our language.
So go back to source, explore the empty spaces of the heart, embrace the simulation field, and greet illusion. This field appears solid but it isn’t. Repulsion guided energy fields force the separation. Without it, you will become one with the bed you lie on. And that’s just physics. If it sounds more like sci-fi than science, consider the following: it has been empirically and definitively proven that our bodies produce chemicals that correspond to thoughts. And this is not new, strange, or groundbreaking. Emotions are biochemistry in action.
So sit and write, or sing, or draw. Express the hurt and give it meaning. Resolve the pain. Devise solutions. Envision purpose, inspiration. Imagine who you want to be. Respect your body. Cherish your mind. Stay in the vortex and trust the process.